I miss her!

Bismillahirahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum wbt brothers n sisters


There is a saying that says 'you dont know wat u have until it's gone'. Now if u ask me, what's the best thing about being here in KL *currently for solehah* im not gonna say it's living in the hotel, nice food, nice people, free flying on a private jet..im not gonna say any of dat. The best thing about being here in KL, ATLEAST for me is dat, i get to appreciate ALL the things i left behind back at home. Especially my family n MOST SPECIFICALLY my MOM!


Therefore, i would like to immortalise my gratitude to my mother, Fathah binti Bujang by writing dis special entry just for her =) Obviously, there is a lot of things i can say about my mother. But im not gonna write long on dis. So, here wat i am gonna share =) im gonna tell u about one thing i adore about my mom, one fond memory dat i had between us and the last thing is, i wanna say something to my mom. Something so important that if i dont say it while i still can, i'll regret it for the rest of my life.


SO! One thing i adore so much about my mother is she is a hardworking lady. My mom is the mother of 5 pretty yet crazy girls n 1 ustaz =p  She is a FULLTIME housewife until she finally get a tender to run a canteen at a primary school somewhere in Kuching =D but BEFORE dat, why i say she is a hardworking lady? it is because rather than just staying at home waiting for her children to come back home from school, wat she did was doing direct selling - CNI, AVON, NUTRIMETICS, COSWAY. Too many to mention here. Yes! She is a hardworking lady. Going to houses by houses, carry things she's gonna sell. Ouhhhh..i know, she's trying her VERY best to help our family to earn more money since my only lovely father working as a government servant. Everyday taking a bus n wat im soooo touched about is, she is a STRONG lady carrying things or shud i say BIG plastic bags with FULL of products to sell n at the end of the day, the money she got, she'll spend to buy things for us. SO suwiiittttttttt <3 huhu. That is freaking AWESOME! But all her hard work paid! Allah swt is Ya Rahman. After almost a decade doing direct selling, Allah gives her something as a reward! Alhamdulillah :) at last, she got to run a canteen. N subhanaallah, her salary is MORE MORE MORE  than before.


One of the fondest memory i had with my mom is both of us lying on my bed in my room! Just the TWO of us, sharing stories. EVERYTHING n ANYTHING! When I was 16, my mom started to treat me like a FRIEND. At first, I was like, eerrr? What's going on? Yes, we both DO hve a good relationship but not as close as what we are now! Hehe. She started to 'disturb' me when i am busy studying (well, im nerd :p) haha. She will start to ask me questions. Silly questions. HAHA. I know her intention is to start a conversation with me. Just a more mature mom-daughter conversation i guess :) This will happen when im back home during weekends or during semester break. We both always wait for the chance when my dad is off to work, and after doing house chores then the time comeeeee! We both will grin at each other, understood wat each other had in minds. Hahaha! Ouhh ladies! This is the time my mother and I will share anything. But to be honest, i talk more! Hehehehe. She is my FOREVER BESTFRIEND instead of THE BEST MOM IN THE WORLD! Wonder what are the TOPICS we're talking about? Hahaha. Keep wondering :) BUT, this sweet time of us, INSYAALLAH, i pray, it wouldn't end until Allah says that's the end. The time i spent with my mom will always be the most precious and unforgettable moment and it is the best part of my life! And Alhamdulillah, that girl grow up strong and healthy :) In the room - it is the best place to have a heart to heart session cause it is calm, quiet n ONLY the rotating sound of the fan is heard. Those are the times that build stronger relationship between both of us until NOW! To all the moms outside, DO treat your daughter just like your friend. Because, with this, then you n your daughter will understand each other more AND what important is, this will avoid misunderstandings which other mom-daughter always had.


LAST BUT NOT LEAST, something that i want to say to my mom that if I dont say it now while i still can, I will regret it for the rest of my life. SO HERE IT IS!


       " dear my beloved 'mak' its the little thing that usually pass us by n noticed and we fail to appreciate them. So, I would like to start up by saying THANK YOU for all the little things u had done for me all these years. Thank you for cooking for me, thank you for your advise, thank you for applying wet cloth on my forehead until my fever breaks, thank you for ur braveness sending me to quran class with dogs chasing after us, thank you for dropping me off to school when it rains heavily, thank you for listening to my bablings and complains, thanks for punishing me when im naughty. For all that and more, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THANK YOU! But a very HUGE thank you I wanna say to u is for your immortal love u show to me and spiritual words u speak to me so that i will become a strong lady inside out. I do realise how big of the impact made on my life until I found out a lot of daughters out there are struggling with their emotions every single sec and since u taught me about life, I always learn from mistakes and that make me even stronger now mom! Also, i would like to say IM SORRY if i ever made u upset, if i ever cause any unhappiness to u. One of my GOALS in life is to make u happy, I wanna make u proud, i wanna make u feel content with whatever i say, i do and with watever i've achived. And if i can get dat, then a big part of my life is already a success. I am eagerly awaits for u to reach dat golden age, NOT because i can't wait to put u into a retirement home, NO NO NO, i'm not gonna do dat, this is a promise, IM NOT GONNA DO DAT. But because i cannot wait to reciprocate all those years u had spent patiently, cleaning me, changing my diapers, feeding me, basically taking care of me when i was a baby. U've been there for me in my time of need, and I want to be there for YOU during ur time of need. I know it is impossible to reciprocate everything u had done for me but i wish my arms are long enough so dat they could touch the east n the west, because only then i could demonstrate to you, how much I LOVE YOU!

Mak, i love u so much! 

Fathah binti Bujang =)

Miss u mom! =(

Sakit Perut

Bismillahirrahim
Assalamualaikum wbt


"Tidaklah orang Muslim ditimpa cubaan berupa penyakit atau lainnya, melainkan Allah menggugurkan keburukannya, sebagaimana pohon yang menggugurkan daunnya.”

(HR. Bukhari-Muslim)


Sakit peruttttt! Semalam ana keluar masuk tandas hampir 8 kali. Dari lepas subuh sampai la malam tadi selepas selesai urusan dengan team Solehah dan Abg Farihin. Memang x selesa langsung. huhu. Sakit sangat perut. Tapi ana kuatkan diri untuk tidak menampakkan kesakitan yang ana sedang alami. Takut takut menjejas urusan kami pada hari itu. Setiap kali selesai solat, konfem! masok tandas. Ya Allah, tandas di Majid Negara, Kuala Lumpur tersangat la jauh dari bilik perbincangan kami. Memang ana rasa sakit sangat kt perut nih. Rasa yang mencucuk cucuk. Huhuhu. 


Bukan itu sahaja, bila lepas makan je..konfem terus masuk tandas. Huhuhuhu. Sedihnye. Ana memang seorang yang sentiasa berselera bila bab bab makan ni. Hehehe. Yes, i have a BIG appetite =) hehehe. Tapi bila dah salu sangat kuar masuk tandas..heran jugak. Sebab sahabat sababat lain ok jer. So INI BUKAN KERACUNAN MAKANAN! Hohoho. Byk nyer dugaan semalam. Dengan perut yang sakit, MENGANTOK pulak tu. Huhuhu. Nak tidurrr je mase dalam perbincangan. Rasa rasanya semalam memang hari mengantuk. Huhuhu. 


Luckily, abg Farihin sgt memahami. Kami diberikan masa untuk take a SHORT nap just to relax our mind n not to be too cruel to ourselves. Yaaaa..we need rest too! Thax abg farihin! Perbincangan diteruskan lagi sehingga malam. Huhuhu. Jam 12 malam baru dapat menjejak kaki di dalam bilik. Fuh! Lega! Puas hati dan letih! Alhamdulillah, Allah mudahkan segalanya. Dengan keadaaan ana yang sakit perut dan mengantuk..diteruskan juga perjuangan untuk menghabiskan tugasan =) 


Setiap orang pasti pernah mengalami sakit. Rasulullah SAW sendiri mengalami sakit demam berat. Namun begitu Nabi tetap sabar dan tabah. Beliau mengatakan kepada Ibnu Mas’ud ra, bahwa penyakit yang datang ke dalam tubuh seorang Muslim itu dapat menggugurkan dosa sebagaimana pohon yang menggugurkan daunnya.

Dalam waktu lain, Rasulullah menjenguk Salman al-Fahrisi yang tengah berbaring sakit. Rasulullah bersabda. “Sesungguhnya ada tiga pahala yang menjadi kepunyaanmu dikala sakit. Engkau sedang mendapat peringatan dari Allah SWT, doamu dikabulkan-Nya, dan penyakit yang menimpamu akan menghapuskan dosa-dosamu.”Rasulullah pun melarang untuk mencela penyakit. Ketika Ummu Saib sakit demam dan mencela penyakit yang menimpanya, Nabi bersabda. “Janganlah kamu mencela demam. Karena sesungguhnya demam itu menikis kesalahan anak cucu Adam sebagaimana bara api mengikis keburukan besi.” (HR. Muslim)


Alhamdulillah :) syukur. Teguran Allah buat ana supaya jangan alpa dengan limpahan nikmatNya. So, nak doa banyak banyakkkkk sebab doa orang yang sakit insyaAllah dikabulkan =) Moga kita sentiasa menjadi orang yang bersyukur =)






Sikap tidak-suka-bertangguh abg farihin cukup saya kagumi. Dia sanggup menghabiskan kerja sehingga lewat malam supaya keesokkan harinya bleh mulakan dengan kerja lain. Yeehaa! Sikap sebegini memang patut kita contohi. Especially! Bila bergelar pelajar madrasah Solehah, pembahagian masa perlulah bijak! 

PROCRASTINATION IS A THIEF OF TIME

Bertangguh adalah pencuri masa -DIRECT TRANSLATION! hehe. Yes! I agree 101%. Hatta bila nk cuci baju yang dah 3 hari dah terbiar, bila asyik bertangguh, baju akan menimbun dan pada waktu itulah menyesal "kenapa la aku tak cuci awal2" haish! Sesal dulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tidak berguna =) chill! hehehe. 








9.00am - 1.1.11


PERGI KELINIK!


Semakin saya tidak suka makan ubat, semakin selalu saya ke kelinik. Huhuhu :( my co-talent coordinator, Kak Faiza forced me to see doctor! Seriously, n frankly speaking i dont like meeting doctors! Huhuhu. Tak suke makan ubat. Sangat tidak suke. Kalau demam biasa2 memang akan elak dari nk jmpe doktor sebab taknak makan ubat. Rela tahan sakit sebab taknak makan ubat. Pelek..memang pelek. But itulah ana :) 


MasyaAllah, BANYAK nya ubat doktor bagi! Huhuhu :( ADE 4 jenis. Ubat gastrik, cirit birit, angin dan muntah! Hohoho. Ana disahkan gastrik LAGI! Huhu. Doktor cakap perut ana ada banyak lebihan asid yang menyebabkan ana gastrik dan akan selalu muntah. Setiap pagi memang sudah menjadi kebiasaan ana akan muntah lendir berwarna kuning. Doktor cakap lendir yang ana muntahkan tu adalan asid. Huhuhu. He advised me to take BUBUR sahaja n avoid makan benda2 berminyak. Huhuhu :( Another 3 days untuk siaran langsung Solehah! I need to get well SOON! huhuhu.